FO camp went by. Hmm, I can only say that I wish I wasn't sick. So many opportunities for fun gone because I was struggling to keep my body upright. Recently, I've been starting to notice how weak I am. It's ok that I can carry loads of weight, it's ok that I can endure narutal elements for hours, it's ok that I can hit and get hit and take all that pain. But I don't think that's what it means to be strong anymore. I'm starting to think that I'll only be strong when I can do all that even while I'm injured and sick.

This camp made me think about how people's character's can get amplified and modified by fatigue and pressure. It's interesting, really. I've learnt that I need to try harder at certain things. If people think I'm level headed, why do I have random outbursts? I need to learn to think while I'm doing things rather than after. I've also learned that next time I camp, I'm not gonna speak much to people who seem to have their plate full. It kinda makes me see their bad sides, and I don't want that.

Except for the sickness, I suppose the camp was ok. Personally, I don't expect many real archers from this new batch. They didn't seem to have the level of interest that's needed. And there are those that I hope Won't stay. Attitudes are something to be adjusted.

Still, stay or not, I expect things to be interesting. It took almost three years to feel like a real senior in ncc. It only took less than a year for archery. I think that's why I feel like it's too soon. After just a year in the sport am I really good enough to pass my knowledge? I will try what I can.

The random rant ends.